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thanks for the advice to those who gave it, i really appreciate it! it’s been decided: i’m buying a camera! i told my family at dinner and my dad offered to give me $200 to help pay for it, just because when he was younger and wanted to pursue photography, he wasn’t able to afford it… and he doesn’t want the same to happen to me. that meant a lot to me.

i present to you another dilemna. because i’m going to rome, my grandmother gave me $500. (she’s never done ANYTHING like this before. i was so shocked.) so, my question now is… do i spend the money on a new sweet ass camera, or do i buy clothes and accessories? if i buy the camera, i’ll have around $400 for clothes and such.

let me know! thoughts, thoughts?

a few months back, i liked this guy. i figured he was way out of my league, but we were still friends. i really liked him, and he acted like he liked me. we hooked up at a party, he was sober and i was… more than tipsy… it looked like things were heading towards a relationship (he even said so himself) until he suddenly shut down.

along comes this blonde, skinny girl who just broke up with her boyfriend for the guy i liked. the guy i liked claimed that he only talked with her because she was hot (what utter bullshit, right?) but they’ve been dating for like, 6 months now… and i’m happy for them, i don’t hold any grudges, absolutely none!

anyways, i just happened to notice he deleted me on facebook. so i’m just a little… peeved, maybe? i don’t know, man. it just seems weird…

i want a mango.

i can’t stop blogging, honestly. i’ve started a new blog, but a more personal one. i’ve called it “autobiography of a romantic”, and i plan to just write down pretty much everything in my life. i know, it could be boring for some, but maybe some people will find my life interesting! i know, unlikely. but i can still dream!

check it out here.

do bird silhouettes have any particular meaning or symbol?

my sister and i were talking on wednesday night about tattoos. we leave for rome in 9 days, and on a whim she suggested we get tattooed together while in rome! it seemed like a great idea, i’ve been wanting a tattoo for a long time. she already knows what she wants (her initials on her wrist) but i’m really uncertain as to what i want. i know i want something that i can easily hide (for work reasons, and also because my dad is conservative…) and something small and simple. i’ve been looking at tattoos online for a few days, and none of them seem to fit me. i’ve been thinking my foot is probably the best place to get a tattoo. the wrist could work as well, because i do tend to wear a lot of bracelets which could very easily hide the tattoo.

i don’t want just anything, i want something that represents me. i’ve been thinking recently that i want something that could somehow portray how i’ve changed; i’m no longer depressed, i no longer cry all the time and hurt myself when i’m angry. i’m so proud of this, and i want to show my pride. but how can i show this? it’s not like i want a cheesy heart or sun on me, it just doesn’t seem right.

i was also thinking of maybe just getting one word, and putting it underneath my ankle. i think that could look really nice. i have a love of words, and i love writing. i haven’t found a word that i would like, yet. i just can’t think of any! another thought that’s been crossing my mind is if maybe i could use a french word, to also show my bilingualism. maybe “tristesse”?

does anyone have any suggestions, even if it’s totally out of this world? i will gladly take any advice. anything? anything?